“Kim Hyun Joong is now engaged”.
The utensils in your hand fell because of the shocked you receive when you saw the news. It’s not real right? It’s just gossip. So even if your heart is beating like crazy, you decided to stay and watch the interview. You were expecting him to laugh and deny it but what you were not prepared for was when he proudly admitted that he’s getting married and even showed the picture of the lucky girl. You couldn’t help but shed a tear even if you already separated..
Yours was not a typical love story. You were hesitant to join that reality show three years ago. For one, you don’t know who’s going to be your make believe husband. You’re manager prodded you in participating since you need more project and exposures. So off you go even if you are still undecided. When you first met him, you‘re too uncomfortable with your set up. He’s a young idol with a budding career. He’s indifferent and is living in his 4D world. You need to be in charge of the relationship since you’re older. You need to compromise a lot just to make things work out during your stint as a couple.
It didn’t take long before you find yourself falling for him. You are now fascinated with his 4dness and you can even reply to him wittingly. Your first impression of him as being indifferent changed and now you see him as someone who’s caring. You now look forward to every shooting day and every spare moment you can spend with him. You are not sure of if he’s also feeling the same but it made you so happy when he confessed before your time in WGM ended. So to make the long story short, you fell for him and he caught you. Officially you became a couple.
Since he’s an idol and younger guy-older woman relationship is not so accepted in the business you’re in, you have to keep this as a secret. Usual couples have dinner dates but you two have to be a 2am couple. You meet in secret every 2am at your favorite club. Instead of watching movies in the theater, you need to find time to rent movies and just watched it in your place or his. When you asked him if it’s not hard for him being in this set up, he just answered that that makes your relationship exciting. He’ll just tell you that in time, when everything else is settled he will announce your relationship to his company. You hang on to this and just keep believing in your love for more than a year.
But just want like the old song goes, some good things never last. He got tired of your set up and you were caught unaware. At first, you thought he just needed space; he needs to have his time away from you. But then you wake up one morning and he’s gone. He drifted away from you. He left with just a simple note. Explaining that he’s not yet ready to settle down and he’s doing this because he knows you deserve someone better. Just like that. He’s gone. You’re alone. You’re world crumbling as the cold of the winter seeps into your broken heart.
You tried your very best to forget him. You frequent clubs and spend time with your girlfriends. It’s so hard pretending you’re okay when your heart is shattered inside. You went on dates but what’s so ironic is that you still look for him in every man you went out with. It useless because you still end up comparing them to him. They can offer you more but the only problem is that they are not him. They are not Kim Hyun Joong. He ruined you for other man. So you decided to just focus on your career and enjoy the company of your friends. You‘ll just take it one step at a time.
It’s been a year now but you are still trying to mend yourself. How long before you completely healed you never know. It’s been hard but you’re trying to move on. Your friends supported you a lot and you’re family has been there too. You were finally able to tell them about the relationship after your break up. And as you watch the news today, saw how happy he is now you can’t help but tell yourself that you need to let go. You will be okay. You can’t help but shed some tears again but vowed that this would be the last time. He’s happy and in time you too will be.
Never mind I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too..
Dont forget me I beg
I remember you said..
"Sometimes it last in love,
but sometimes it hurts instead..
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