Wishes and More

really cant think of a nice title.. anyways.. after 3 days of  being internetless ( if there's such a word) .. here it goes..

Take my hand
we’ll walk awhile,
we'll talk awhile
Feel my love
Always there beside you

You were standing waiting in the altar and as the music began you turned around and were totally mesmerized at the woman walking down the aisle. She was like an apparition.  Her beauty shining radiantly and you cannot help but again thank God for bringing her into your world.

Flash back 2008

You were waiting for your make believe partner in Jeju Airport. You were so sleepy and just want to go directly to your dorm and hibernate. It’s just so unfortunate that the shoot has to be on the day of your arrival. You saw an approaching car and your heart beat faster. Is she a cute young lady? Or another idol perhaps?  You’re excited to meet her but also nervous in a way. You tried to stay calm and waited patiently. When the car stopped in front of you and saw the woman behind the wheels, you felt your heart stopped for a while.  You have known her for a while and you were simply too star struck that she’s gonna be your wife in the show.

“Annyeong” she greeted you.

And from then on, you knew. You were taken. Completely. Irrevocably smitten.

I love you more than
you'll ever know
I love you more than
you'll ever see
more than my heart could ever show
I love you more than
you'll ever know

During your stint in We got married, a lot of people were speculating that you wouldn’t last. You were even called the awkward couple. What they didn’t know is that behind those awkward moments were the suppressed fondnesses for each other. The first time you played Bogoshipda, you really wanted to impress her. When you promised to learn the whole song while in Japan, you really did try but schedules won’t permit. Singing for her “Dahaengida” was expressing all your feeling towards her. You can still recall how nervous you were presenting to her the five paper cranes you made. The whole time you were burying the cranes in the sand, you were berating yourself why you didn’t prepare something more special. You were serious about the 1000 paper cranes promise so you and your group mates completed the remaining 964 for her birthday. Band aids stayed in all your ten fingers due to paper cuts in folding the cranes. It was all worth it when you saw her reaction after the event you have prepared.

 During your 100 day wedding photo shoot how you wish it’s all for real. Seeing her dressed in that wedding gown, how beautiful she can be, you vowed that one day she’s going to wear that gown again- this time in your own wedding.  You almost hugged the photographer due to happiness when they asked her to give you a kiss.  And when they asked you to do the same, you were actually trying hard to contain yourself. You wanted it badly but you knew she might get offended if you show too much eagerness.

Think of me
and know that I'll believe in you
there’ll always be
this precious time together
With every tear
a love so strong
No words could ever say
a love to last forever

When the time came for you to end the show, you knew in your heart that you won’t let your relationship end there too. So on the last day of shoot, you proposed to her. Although she didn’t give you a yes then, she asked you to just give her some time. You said you’re willing to wait as long as it takes.  After the Goodbye Ji Hu concert for your fans, after months of not seeing each other, you found her waiting in your doorstep. She was wearing a brown hooded jacket, baggy pants; her head down and with a big bouquet of flowers in hand. You ran towards her.  As soon as you reached her, you remove the hoodie covering her face and you were so surprised when you saw tears fell as she said those wonderful words

“Are you still waiting for me? Can I still be your Buin?”

Words cannot express how over whelmed you were so you just took her in your arms and hugged her so tight. This time you’re not willing to let go. You gave her a soul shattering kiss and uttered

“You never need to ask”.

I love you more than
you'll ever see
more than my heart could ever show
I love you more than
you'll ever know

She’s almost at the altar now beside you. When she stopped just a few steps away from you, you cannot help but reached to her and gave her cheek a kiss. Claiming, marking your territory and letting the entire guest know that she’s your woman. She just laughed and said

“Shillang, don’t make a scene. It’s Kyujoong and Yoo bin’s day”.

You just smiled back at her and assisted her towards her place as the matron of honor. It’s so reminiscent of your wedding day. She’s still so beautiful even after 3 years of being married and already 5 months pregnant. Kyujoong gave you a dirty look so you rushed towards him and took the best man’s side. The bride is ready to walk down the aisle so you stayed on your spot but you kept an eye on your beautiful wife the whole ceremony.

During the reception, a lot of people were congratulating you on the coming baby and your happy married life. It’s a feat maintaining a good family life in the entertainment industry. You were surprised that when Kyujoong was asked what his wish is on his wedding day, he said that he wants a life just like what you and Hyejung has. Your wife, tearing up while listening to her brother in law reached for your hand and squeezed it.

After the reception as you were driving on your way home, waiting for the stop light to turn green, you stare at your lovely wife fast asleep in the passenger seat. Her head facing towards you and again you marveled at her beauty. You must have done something good in your past to deserve someone like her. She’s everything you have dreamed of and more. She’s the reason why you work so hard and the source of happiness in your life. You took her hand in yours and whispered in her ears. “I love you Hye Jung. My lovely Hwang buin”. And even in her sleep she answered back whole heartedly “I love you too Shillang, I do. Forever.”